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Well guys,

It has been quite some time since I've written on here. And there needs to be an explanation for this. In my last message I questioned what you should do during an earthquake, a storm. At that point I didn't really have an answer. I was going through a time in my life where I didn't know how to respond. To stay strong in the faith. Satan was shaking up my world. I considered it a dry season. I'm not sure if I would use that description though at this point. I went through a time where I lost all the trust I had in almost all my spiritual mentors and just mentors in general who I had unknowingly built my foundation upon, instead of God's Word as my foundation. My security, my armor was in the truths that I learned from them. This is soooo not a good foundation. Even if it was Mother Teressa, it is not good to place your foundation on any human, or anything other than the Bible, and Christ Jesus. He is the only one Satan hasn't been able to touch and contaminate in some way. In other words everything aside from God's Word has the ability to make mistakes. Including my mentors. Satan is always just waiting to attack our weak points and He's constantly studying those weak point and how to stretch them. I was a victim of his deception. First of all when I put other people above God and secondly, when I fell for his lies after I saw my sandy foundation crumbling beneath the waves of struggle. Thankfully, God knows us better than Satan. He knows our weak points and our strong points and He's constantly watching over us and ready to fight for us. Satan once again captured me and kept me in a "soundproof" box and thus, I couldn't hear God. There are flaws with that statement though. There is no place on earth, or anywhere that is soundproof from the mighty voice of God, and... I could hear God. I just couldn't recognize His voice though with all the demons that I let in nonchalantly. Once I realized that...that it was once again coming down to my choices, I started pulling through. God rescued me once again from my captors. Ever since then, well, I have been learning how to fight them off:). And my next post will contain messages from God to myself with some solutions on fighting those battles. To end this post though, I am so excited to tell you that..truly...whatever storm/earthquake we go through, God is holding our world, holding us in His hand. And His voice is louder than any kind of problem we have. We have to tune out the storm, the earthquake with the gentle, but powerful voice of love, His voice. Key to this? Faith. Faith that His love is greater, more powerful, more reliable, and definitely more capable of success than any problem we have ever seen.

God bless:)

Alicia

QOD-Where do you run to when there is an earthquake?
You can't hold on to anything, because everything you see is on a crumbling foundation and you can't exactly pretend that your stable to keep yourself sane, no matter how good of an actress you are.
This is one situation that I don't know how to get out of.
Gotta trust Him.

Happiness report ->..:D...<-

Wow, uh so, GOD IS AMAZING!!!!!! He just totally gave me the most intensely awesome word ever!!!! He's SOOOOOO, SOOOO, SOOOO hacking incredible!!!!AHHHHH!!!!! Sometimes He just blows my mind at the most unexpected times. He makes sure that I go through all this emotional crap first to make me a stronger and just as I survive my pathetic little emo breakdown whatever and I'm like wow I survived. He's like girrrl....guess whose been fightin all your battles behind the scenes while you been there mopin??? and I'm like...ohhh. and then He's like hahahahaha your such an idiot, but I love you so much:Djkjkjk I made you smarty pants! Dude seriously, He gave me the most incredible word tonight. k check this out aight:).

"Just, because your map isn't outlined in gold doesn't mean that your journey will be any less significant than any others. And just, because you've fallen upon a scarier season doesn't mean that you've messed up and have to get back to where you were. Time never runs in reverse and looking back at what is growing farther away only keeps you from avoiding or anticipating what's in front of you."- Abba

K so I wrote this up (leaving out some more stuff that's way to personal that I thought of cause I'm like yeah no one's gonna be hearin that part of me. anyways. side note for later on)and my first thought was like wow that's weird this is like the answer to all the stuff I been dealin with for like ummm...a while(those thoughts up there being the answers too:) and then I was like k reverb uhuh uhuh I'm like a sage uhuh that's right I'm like so gonna write this on facebook and pps are gonna be like wow this girl ain't foolin. And I'm all hyped up when I read it again and I'm like what the heck I'm so not even smart enough to think this stuff up...and that's when God's just pops up and He's like hah no. I did;)lol <3. Okay so I just wanted to tell y'all this cause it was amazing to me and I think God is hilarious and so I wanted y'all to hear 'bout it.
So if you follow me up on blogspot or whatever you might have noticed that I have posted anything in quite a while. That's partially because, well being a senior I'm crazy busy with school and lots of other crazy stuff. It's also because I haven't heard from God. And I typically just write out what I've been hearing from God on here right? Yeah so pretty much I've been on a huge and tremendously rough dry season. Satan's been pullin all my strings loose and cuttin me off my tracks as much as he's been able to, but I tell you what, Jesus Christ is way stronger than him and in Christ we are more than conquirers and I am a conquirer. In fact lol ok I'm such a adhd fool, but I gotta tell you this. I had this dream last night where I was at this haunted house with all these people, this is a legit haunted house k? And for some reason my family has moved into it and we have all these ppl over right. (when I have dreams about haunted houses it's always like my family is moving into them for some reason...i don't know why:/.we're just not that smart I guess haha). So after we find out that it's haunted my parents are in there with some other parents rescuing ppl and doing what not..fighting I guess and I'm outside of the house leading all these kids and some peers and I'm just praying and praising God and worshiping Him and then I yell out towards the house "In Jesus' name I comand you to flee!" And boooom! It's like the lord of the rings when sauron dies and the army just goes out in a big blue wave haha the whole house is like woooooshhhh and all the bad guys flee and everyone's like wow the power of Jesus and I'm like screamin yeaahhhhhh:D!! and of course each room in the house has the one big demon that you gotta face head on in a more intense way so we take care of them and move out anyways cause I think it's like a house in hell or something so the actual house is bad but anyways. big bunny trail. I'm finding so many lessons through this dream..it's almost like a vision. So I thought I'd share:). Ok well if you go up to where I strarted the bunny trail about the dream that's where I'm goin off of now. This one guy I know who rocks and he and his wife are like role models haha, well he was talking to me 'bout this school he went to and one thing they taught was that when your going through a really rough time with God and you can't hear him and your struggling in your faith, go back to where you were when you were strong and this stuck with me and for some reason it just this past week hit me...sigh.me and my memory. anyhoo so I was doing this awesome 21day fast with my church last time I felt God the strongest and so I was just going through that again and it's this fast that's kind of like a go and touch the world thing. So when I start this out I'm not feeling it at all ok? I'm like God I used to feel so compassionate towards everyone and everything when I did this fast and I was so ready to help and God I'm barely surviving myself! I can't start helping others 'til you help me. Well I haven't kept up with the fast just cause it's been busy, but wow. The night before last I was praying that God would just heal me. And He is totally showing me that He's healing me. I've just been looking at people in a different way and guys it's incredible. I'm so inspired and wow. I hear His voice now and man I'm gonna admit I've been way depressed. Which is totally ridiculous, because God has just been ouring out blessings on my life, so much lately I mean a ton. I won't go into it, but I've been trying to find joy and contentment and wow he has. Ok so this has pretty much been a report of blessing or joy or happiness just cause I'm siked, but I hope that someone might've been like girl I'm feelin ya somehow haha that's my prayer. Seriously though, ask for healing if you're going through junk..it works:).
God bless m'friends,
Alicia

proof that i was depressed:/......but, now I'm not:D!

Just when you think you've been put back together, you start falling apart. Just when you thought you can handle this forever, you can't find your the way through the last of the dark. A glimpse of sunshine, that was the hope, but it was blotted only a hoax. Back to the drawing board of not knowing a thing. forgotten your past and now you have nothing. Trying to think back on what you have learned, but then you realize that it's all been burned. pretending that you know exactly what to do put on a masquerade to hide what your going through. gotta get back on track before you fall two steps behind. just try to rewind. figure out where your goin how to get things right it won't be like before, but at least you'll have sight. get it together girl you were meant for great things that's what they'd tell you, but they don't know a thing about how life has turned around how you've changed completely not one thing you've found to be true about you. can't get it right no matter how hard you try stop holding it back. how? just leave it all behind to many scars on my mind to unwind it won't let me I can't. now what?loose my creativity. can't do a job completely, but it may help me slow down an organize my thoughts bring them all down.

Journal Entry#3

Hellooo friends!!


Well it's been quite a while since I've written a post:/...I've been quite a busy girl as of late. Also I've been going through kind of a dry season with Christ and I'm just comming through that I think hooray:D!! Anyhoo both the posts I've written have been about stuff I've learned from Christ, and being in a dry season...well I just wasn't getting anything. Dry seasons always stink, but I think that they are very important and God brings them for so many reasons. In my opinion, mainly to build up your strength in Him to trust and be faithful in who He is and His love for you even when you're not feeling or hearing Him. They are the times when the voice of temptation is screaming in your ear and Christ is just whispering. This being so...it's way easy to fall. But if you start concentrating on just Christ's voice you start to recognize it more and so that you will know His voice without a doubt when it's most important. For all my musical friends, I think of it as trying to hear and learn the right harmony in a song for 8pps all on different harmonies...owchhh...thankfully he doesn't give us more than we can handle and only allows us beginners to take on the easy duets:)...wow i'm such a theatre nerd haha!Before I knew Christ too well, I used to think I had dry seasons with Him because He was mad at me or preparing me for a time where He'd leave me to fend for myself and I guess that was part of the reason I wasn't as attracted to a more intimate relationship with Him. But truth is, He's always with me and love isn't all about feeling someone or hearing them it's about believing in them having trust and faith in them even when you aren't constantly being reminded of that love. We're not gonna grow to recognize His voice well unless we're stretched and that's what dry seasons are all about...we gotta stretch our ears and hearts a bit farther while we fight off the ultimate liar...ahhh!!!!scary right??It's truly impossible without Christ..which is why Bible reading and worship is really important during these times, even though we aren't as attracted to them.

Well there's my bit on dry seasons haha time to tell y'all what's been happening with me and ok so confession I totally saved this first part to drafts, and it's been so busy, that now is the first time I've been able to get back into it and wow God has done..a LOT since I saved it:D!!!hmm where to start..ooo well I've had so many chances to evangelize and be a light lately which is THE MOST incredible feeling ever to me haha and speaking of...before I actually really started digging for opportunities to evangelize I went on this 21 day fast and it came with a devotional book. One chapter talked about how we're always hearing of how God knows us so well, but how He really wants us to get to know Him and not just in the fact that He's God with all of His amazing wonders, but like as like a spiritual individual if that makes sense. Hopefully I worded that correctly haha! But anyhoo, I started asking God just random questions..like what do you like to do for fun...what would you spend an entire saturday doing? His response like totally brought us together even more. Instead of answering the question He was like "Hmmm can I show you:D?" And I added the ending smile for a reason...He's honestly really funny and hyperish and He makes me smile and laugh so much for those of you who don't know Him too well:D!!!!But anyways I had this feeling like Oh my gosh I'm about to go sky diving from Pluto at light speed or something! haha well I actually got it little better..He put this picture into my head of people around who were having a bad day and He showed like a sillouette of someone making them smile and bringing light into their darkened day...and making an impact on possibly their lives...then, I felt Him saying "This is what I do for fun:)"...with that kind of knowing smile that you just hear. Since then He's brought so many chances for me to witness/help people and make them smile and now honestly He's turned it into what I do for fun:)...it's better than any movie, any game, any, I don't even know, but it's amazing.

Ok well you gotta read a bit more cause God's been doing some more incredible things and you can't miss out on hearing them. A few weeks ago I was in youth group listening to my pastor and he said something related to streams or something like them and once again I had like a small glimpse of what's on God's mind:). This pic came to my head, of just looking over a dark jungle/forest...it was so black that I couldn't tell that this is what it was...I just knew. But this wasn't the whole picture, there was a pond/spring of clear water on the right side of the forest/jungle and it was pure water..then a small part of that blackness was lifted like a sliding door that goes up instead of to the side. A tiny, thin line of the water in the stream started going through the little open doorway and just trickled through..then it started spiderwebbing outwards into more tiny, tiny streams and then the picture went away... I thought it was just me and my abstract and very random mind but I found out later there was more too it:). Sometime before then, I think(it could've been from 3,2,1 penguins cause they have something kinda like this, but let's just say it wasn't haha) I saw a completely black..(I'm guessing)map that only had one bright light at the center of it with a mist of light above it..then the mist started traveling away from the center, starting to cover more of the map. As this happened more bright spots of light were formed coming out from the center until the whole map was covered. I don't know if it was exactly brought into my mind as so, but a few days ago God brought that image to my mind ..possibly recreated it. Once again I was just thinking it was a little odd and probably just a bunny trail through my head, but then I went to my friends house the other day and God had brought things to their heart that were sort of similar and it kind of brought more clarity to the puzzle God's wanting us to solve. I can't disclose anymore right now but prayer for even more clarity to this would be great:)!!!How exciting right?!Well pretty soon I'm sure it will be a bit more confusing and marvelous:D!I love puzzles!!!!!!!!!And I'm pretty sure He's starting to reveal something big in my life and in many others:)!

Well hmm I guess some pps might be wondering just what's happening with me right? Well to answer that question..mainly school:(. But along with that I've had Triple Threat Texas practice, Voice Lessons, You're a Good Man Charlie Brown rehearsals, and just recently I performed in a talent show:O!!It went well and all that stuff has been going marvelously too, thanks to Jesus. But this Spring break, I have to admit is kind of a nice rest from it all. OOOooo but one of my fav things that's happened recently is that I became a member at Gateway Church:D!!!And now I can get more involved and I get to see so many amazing ppl more and I'll have a bunch of opportunities to help! yay:D!I'm so blessed with wonderful leadership and great friends all over the place. Home life. Well it hasn't been quite up to regular status and fellowship. We're all big into politics and are getting ready for conventions and doing a lot of crazy stuff. Well my parents are very busy with it especially. Please pray for God's strength and peace for them. It's really been hectic:/. God's with us though so I know it'll all work out:) and also I'm pretty sure this week will be a lot less stressful woot!Well, I still have yet another story to tell of stuff that God has told me but this message is long and I have to jump back into school.

Thank you so much for reading this:D!I had so much fun writing it and I pray that God will reveal more of His love and plan for you way soon and that this might of helped in some way with that.

With Christ's Love,

Licia

Journal Entry#2

Ok well 2nd post. I was planning on writing a post about letting go of yourself but I found it to a subject that is way too deep for me to write just a few paragraphs on, seeing as how I umm kind of write a lot:). Soooo I guess I'll tell ya'll just about what's been happening with me instead:). First of all I'm reading this really great book called "Stepping Heavenward". I would personally suggest that every girl my age...especially new Christians should read it. It's about this girl who starts out kind of wanting to be a Christian at the back of her head but not wanting to make the change partially because she's unsure of how to make this change. She has a very bad temper with her mother especially. Her mom behaves in a way that wouldn't exactly entice me towards Christianity showing foremost the sacrificial Christian life instead of the life that is filled with love and joy. She also quotes scripture constantly to her for every right and wrong that she does. It's good to quote scripture but it's words that God's brought to your heart through scripture that I believe would be the most powerful evangelistic tools for those who are not very attracted to the Christian life. This is my only problem though in the book so far. Anyways she gets herself into a bad predicament which leads her to need Christ and truly decide to change. The book is written as her diary so it just shows the day to day, sometimes month to month walk in finding Christ and the process of becoming a Christian who truly walks the walk. My mom has read it twice and has half the book highlighted and the rest underlined basically so it's interesting finding the same truths throughout the book as she has. But anyways it's helped me a lot with my walk, because I'm still sort of a new Christian in the way of actually living for Christ.

Next thing I'd like to tell ya'll about is what my pastor has just started preaching on and duuuude!!!!It's sooo awesome!!!Actually all his sermons kind of have been for me. He's really hilarious and makes so much sense even with the most complicated issues. Anyways he started a new series last week called "One Thing". It's a 4week series in which he interviews some of the more famous ppl who go to our church asking them mainly about the one thing that they cannot live without and then moving on into a regular sermon. This past week he interviewed Vernon Wells a pro-baseball star...I'm not exactly sure of what team he plays for( I don't watch much baseball haha) but it was pretty coolio even still. Vernon said though that the one thing he definitely couldn't live without though was God. And that's one sign that I guess kind of defines the Christians by name and the real guys just in case you aren't sure ya know. I mean choosing between Christ or what attracts you most in the world. I never had really thought about that surprisingly enough. I mean the one thing I couldn't live without, well since I had become a Christian. If you even have to question Christ being the answer to that question, you might need to concentrate on your walk more. It's just a good way of reminding yourself of what this life is about I guess:)

Another awesome sermon I heard this week was given by my youth pastor...who hacking rocks ok..seriously he is among the top 5-10 ppl existing on this planet to me haha. He also started a new series called "Hello Someone". He talked about his days as a lifeguard and how one time because he was distracted in his own thoughts someone almost died. People were shouting by crazy by the time he got out of his own little zone. He related us Christians as the lifeguards and the pps at the park as the non-Christians who are drowning and calling out to us for help. We gotta get our thoughts in the right place and be concentrated on having our ears open to hear their cries and to hear how God wants us to help them before we'll be able to hear them and be ready to help. Those ppl are dying...I mean they're headed to hell and they don't even know it and many times it's like we don't even care you know because we're so rapped up in what ppl think of us or what they've done to us or what we could do to make life better for ourselves. It's cruel really. And we do it all the time. So that's basically the message. And it just fired me up way more to go out there to evangelize...which I've found within these past couple of days once more to be not the easiest thing to do out there.

Every single person out there has such a complicated mind and reasons for not accepting Christ and not letting go. I knew everyone has a complicated mind but I mean seriously it's Christ why would you not accept him right away. Especially in America these days pps from birth have been brought up with a hardened heart towards anything having to do with God. I was talking to a middle-school evolutionist and dude...he brought up all these scientific "facts" and "proofs" that evolution is right. Ok well I'm not a pro and fighting against evolutionists because that's not where I've put my attention into. So how in the world was I suppost to fight these lies? Well I could spend my life working up to be a scientist who defies evolution...but then what about the Buddhists and Islamists?I mean and my passion is mainly for helping reaching the low-casts and enslaved and you know those kind of people who mainly just concentrate on surviving instead of anything spiritual. Well after I finished up my conversation with the guy feeling like I had used up all that time for nothing I talked to my mom about it all and she reminded me of one of my favorite quotes by Francis of Assisi "Preach the gospel at all times, if necessary use words". This made me feel even more stupid because the entire time I was talking to him I was just bringing up reasons of why evolution is totally flawed. But then my mom was like "Well just you being out there talking and listening to him though was ministering to him". We have the opportunity to plant seeds in these people that God can tug at all the time by just spending time listening to what they have to say and being there for them. Yeah all these pps are complicated and your not usually gonna be able to help them become a Christian right away but nothing is too complicated for God and He sees into them and knows of the simplest of actions that can change their life for Him.

Well these little messages really encouraged me tons so hopefully they've done the same for you:)!!!Thanks for reading and please share your thoughts about it:)!!!
God bless,
Licia

1st post-prayer and prejudice

Ok well I'm kinda new to this blogging thing so if I'm doing it all wrong please let me know haha! I got a blog mainly to present links that can share ways in which you can help our world today but I also think it's for sharing your thoughts on life day by day as kind of an open journal to the world, so that is how I'll present this one I guess haha:)!

"Journal Entry#1"-Well today has been a pretty great day. Most exciting news would have to be that my dear brother finally has a cell phone:D!! Most horrifying news would have to be of how this information was presented to me. My brother basically tricked me into thinking he was some creepy stalker since he had this new number. Mainly by telling me what time I woke up and little details like that.... yeahhhhh.... scary! Anyways I was pretty frustrated by this and so I decided that it was pay back time hehehe. I called up my friend and told him the story asking him to do the same thing Dan did to me to Daniel himself. He happily agreed and started this little prank… sadly ended in the police getting called and my friend almost getting arrested (we kind of got more into being stalkers than he did)...yeah never do anything like that with Daniel:/.

It's all good now though XD! TTT was awesome and I finally figured out a dance move I've been trying to learn for weeks...and the rest of the day was boring school

..Till I got onto this website and accidentally got onto this Iranian dudes blog. My first thought was woooowww awesome...I can really be a stalker now and then it was oh crap would if he's a terrorist and will trace me down and blow my face off:/. But being a very curious person and thinking that maybe I could help the FBI or something (even though his blog was open for the world to see….I’ve been cursed with quite a large imagination). I snooped around for a bit and found out by many translating tools and by many failures in understanding the jumbled English/ Arabic code (that in my mind was filled with many clues of a terrorist attack:)that he was or at least spoke in Persian. One of his posts that I translated was what looked to be some sort of poetry and the poem was, I think, about life on the sea which of course lead me to believe that instead of a terrorist he was...a pirate. His profile picture (which looked like someone on a wanted sign) in my mind, supported this. But then I found that he lived in the capital of Iran which uhh...isn't really close to any ocean....

I then decided that I should start thinking the best of this mysterious stranger and view him through God's eyes instead of my own Nancy drew superhero wanna-be eyes. I saw his posts quite differently at this point. They were mostly all about wanting to find the meaning of life and that it looked to him like there was nothing but misery to this world. He was searching for truth in this dark and mysterious world and lived in one of the hardest places to find truth… Iran. I found that he was an incredible musician by a video of him playing a reprise he made of one of the most complicated but beautiful songs I have ever heard. He was normal, no terrorism, no piracy, just a normal young adult trying to find something to live for and not having an easy time of it. I felt terrible. I live in a nation that is yes very wicked and evil and is slowly crumbling apart, but is also the most Christian Nation out there pretty much. In addition, one of the most sheltered areas of our country, which is in the safest most Christian state out there surrounded by a family and friends who are on fire for the King of love and compassion Himself. I was so ashamed of myself. Especially since I’m someone who has already found the meaning of life and truth and something to live for.

I immediately decided to start regularly praying for this dear man. At that moment something hit me, or He hit me (with clarity). Why would some random dude’s blog show up instead of the main blogspot page when I typed the site it in? Why would it happen to be a random Iranian’s page? And why would this happen to me, one of the most curious persons out there? This did not happen by random chance. I plan to in the future, possibly as a career, go to the Middle East (India most-likely) and do missions work for the girls who have been pulled into human trafficking. This being the case, the men of these areas would be my natural enemy and I had already unknowingly formed a huge prejudice against them even though they need Christ just as much as those slave girls do, whether they’re involved in the trafficking or terrorism or piracy or not. I think Father God was really wanting me to see this today to 1-open my eyes up to the prejudices I hold, 2- give me a better glimpse of how He loves and how He wants me to love, 3- to pray for this guy that He loves so much that could be going through an immense bout of difficulty possibly particularly at this very moment, and 4- so that maybe someone else will feel something through this message He’s taught me today and feel lead to pray for the people out there who they might have prejudices against. Well there it is. My first post, and quite a long one at that:/…haha:)!I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it!
God bless,
-Licia