Wow, uh so, GOD IS AMAZING!!!!!! He just totally gave me the most intensely awesome word ever!!!! He's SOOOOOO, SOOOO, SOOOO hacking incredible!!!!AHHHHH!!!!! Sometimes He just blows my mind at the most unexpected times. He makes sure that I go through all this emotional crap first to make me a stronger and just as I survive my pathetic little emo breakdown whatever and I'm like wow I survived. He's like girrrl....guess whose been fightin all your battles behind the scenes while you been there mopin??? and I'm like...ohhh. and then He's like hahahahaha your such an idiot, but I love you so much:Djkjkjk I made you smarty pants! Dude seriously, He gave me the most incredible word tonight. k check this out aight:).
"Just, because your map isn't outlined in gold doesn't mean that your journey will be any less significant than any others. And just, because you've fallen upon a scarier season doesn't mean that you've messed up and have to get back to where you were. Time never runs in reverse and looking back at what is growing farther away only keeps you from avoiding or anticipating what's in front of you."- Abba
K so I wrote this up (leaving out some more stuff that's way to personal that I thought of cause I'm like yeah no one's gonna be hearin that part of me. anyways. side note for later on)and my first thought was like wow that's weird this is like the answer to all the stuff I been dealin with for like ummm...a while(those thoughts up there being the answers too:) and then I was like k reverb uhuh uhuh I'm like a sage uhuh that's right I'm like so gonna write this on facebook and pps are gonna be like wow this girl ain't foolin. And I'm all hyped up when I read it again and I'm like what the heck I'm so not even smart enough to think this stuff up...and that's when God's just pops up and He's like hah no. I did;)lol <3. Okay so I just wanted to tell y'all this cause it was amazing to me and I think God is hilarious and so I wanted y'all to hear 'bout it.
So if you follow me up on blogspot or whatever you might have noticed that I have posted anything in quite a while. That's partially because, well being a senior I'm crazy busy with school and lots of other crazy stuff. It's also because I haven't heard from God. And I typically just write out what I've been hearing from God on here right? Yeah so pretty much I've been on a huge and tremendously rough dry season. Satan's been pullin all my strings loose and cuttin me off my tracks as much as he's been able to, but I tell you what, Jesus Christ is way stronger than him and in Christ we are more than conquirers and I am a conquirer. In fact lol ok I'm such a adhd fool, but I gotta tell you this. I had this dream last night where I was at this haunted house with all these people, this is a legit haunted house k? And for some reason my family has moved into it and we have all these ppl over right. (when I have dreams about haunted houses it's always like my family is moving into them for some reason...i don't know why:/.we're just not that smart I guess haha). So after we find out that it's haunted my parents are in there with some other parents rescuing ppl and doing what not..fighting I guess and I'm outside of the house leading all these kids and some peers and I'm just praying and praising God and worshiping Him and then I yell out towards the house "In Jesus' name I comand you to flee!" And boooom! It's like the lord of the rings when sauron dies and the army just goes out in a big blue wave haha the whole house is like woooooshhhh and all the bad guys flee and everyone's like wow the power of Jesus and I'm like screamin yeaahhhhhh:D!! and of course each room in the house has the one big demon that you gotta face head on in a more intense way so we take care of them and move out anyways cause I think it's like a house in hell or something so the actual house is bad but anyways. big bunny trail. I'm finding so many lessons through this dream..it's almost like a vision. So I thought I'd share:). Ok well if you go up to where I strarted the bunny trail about the dream that's where I'm goin off of now. This one guy I know who rocks and he and his wife are like role models haha, well he was talking to me 'bout this school he went to and one thing they taught was that when your going through a really rough time with God and you can't hear him and your struggling in your faith, go back to where you were when you were strong and this stuck with me and for some reason it just this past week hit me...sigh.me and my memory. anyhoo so I was doing this awesome 21day fast with my church last time I felt God the strongest and so I was just going through that again and it's this fast that's kind of like a go and touch the world thing. So when I start this out I'm not feeling it at all ok? I'm like God I used to feel so compassionate towards everyone and everything when I did this fast and I was so ready to help and God I'm barely surviving myself! I can't start helping others 'til you help me. Well I haven't kept up with the fast just cause it's been busy, but wow. The night before last I was praying that God would just heal me. And He is totally showing me that He's healing me. I've just been looking at people in a different way and guys it's incredible. I'm so inspired and wow. I hear His voice now and man I'm gonna admit I've been way depressed. Which is totally ridiculous, because God has just been ouring out blessings on my life, so much lately I mean a ton. I won't go into it, but I've been trying to find joy and contentment and wow he has. Ok so this has pretty much been a report of blessing or joy or happiness just cause I'm siked, but I hope that someone might've been like girl I'm feelin ya somehow haha that's my prayer. Seriously though, ask for healing if you're going through junk..it works:).
God bless m'friends,
Alicia
